If he loves you, he'll come back.

“If you love somebody, let them go. If they return, they were always yours. If they don't, they never were.”

For once, this quote has fulfilled itself in the way we all wish it would :D

The day after my last entry, I was supposed to go see Ty for a final goodbye. Last minute, I decided I couldn't bare to go see him and know I couldn't have him. I was finally starting to get into a good place about the situation, and I didn't want to upset my progress. Ty agreed that no one would benefit from seeing each other, but we continued to text that day.

Finally, as the day was ending and the cut off approached, Tyler broke. He asked me out again. I was completely surprised, because I seriously thought he was done and not going to take it back. But in conversations since then, He says not being with me hurt him a lot more than he had ever let on

Needless to say, I am incredibly happy he is back. I am in love with him and life simply was not nearly as happy without him. The only penalty of this "hiccup" is my trust in him is shaken. He completed blindsided me when he called it off and now he is back to the way he was before, if not more fervent in wanting to be with me forever. It hard to readjust, considering a week ago, he was acting like living the single life was what he wanted. He says that even one week away showed him how important I am in his life and how his guy friends have their place, but its not the same closeness and bond of having a girlfriend. He promises he will never do it again. I know he is sincere, but it is still going to take some time to feel confident that he will stay like he says.

Our rekindling came with very good time. A few days after we got back together, his mother got some horrible news. She has had melanoma for the past ten years, but it had always been under control. This spring, she had a major surgery to get rid of some of the new spots that had shown up on her arm and in her breast and colon. She has to be completely cancer free before they could start her planned therapy. Unfortunately, the MRI showed a tumor in her brain. This is devastating news. Mets to the brain shows advanced cancer, and Jana is forty and far too young to leave her family behind. Ty is incrediblly close to his mother; therefore, this news is crushing him and rightfully so. Melanoma progresses fast, so who knows how long it will take to get her. I'm trying to be there for him as much as I can, but what do you say? There is no redeeming element to this situation. It just all round sucks and is completely unfair.

This is why Ty and I need each other. I need to help him through his mother's illness. And he will help me through the stressful, crazy world of being a new RN.

We are in this together.